Sarcastic Joker

Thoughts of a Joker

2006-03-02T21:52:00.000+08:00

I have been doing a little reminiscing. Of what had happened. One time, I was a sniffling little kid facing the new challenge of going to a new school called Maktab SOAS, and now… I am working with a position that I may have never thought I would be when I was younger. Back then, everything seemed more simple, so fun and care-free. *sigh* I do know that there were trouble during those times, but at least I didn’t really thought about it that much.

It has been 11 years since that day and I still can not believe that I have gotten this far. My life has been turned around and upside down….

I met many people along the way in the journey of my life. I made many friends, and lost almost all of them throughout my course. I could only recollect only 2 or 3 who remain close. Others have other faded away or moved on with their lives, paths that go in the opposite direction to mine.

Let me take a person for an example. This friend of mine has been around for an even 12 years or so. I met him in school. We were in the same class for 5 years, being close for an odd 7 years before drifting apart. The late 90s were the time. I would go to his place and spend time there… hanging around and talk. Now, I look back and realize, those times are the only things that I could hold onto, as the things that I enjoy most of my youth.

I lost friends not only through differing destiny, but through death. I lost several… among those is a best friends and cousin whom I can never replace. Always there, been with me through the thick and thin, giving brotherly advice when I was down and keeping my hopes up for the next day.

I go through life in my own way now. I once thought that I would never end up the way I am. I guess I have to live with the consequences of my choices in the past. Just like many of us do. I simply could not go back in time. If I could, I would change 3 things that would entirely change who I am now. I can’t explain what they are, but those decisions are the main reason to why I am here.

I stand and look at myself in the mirror now, and there are times when I don’t even recognize the person staring back at me. This is not the man who I once was, nor is he the man I thought I would be.

People proclaimed that I have a lucky life. Living the life that I want and dreamed of, don’t they realize the pain that I have gone through? I am not as strong as you all think I am. I am just an average person, with average abilities and capabilities.

And yet, I am still here. I close my eyes, hoping that this is all a dream that I will wake up as the kid going to school in 1995, but I don’t. I am still here. In my solitude, in my despair. As I reminisce again through my thoughts of memories and through my collection of have been, I shed a silent tear. I never wanted it to end up like this. A peaceful life that is all I wanted. But that is just something that I could never have.

I had dreams of becoming someone, but not the person I am now. No, who I am now was far from what I wanted to be. But in the end… I am here.

It hurts, for not only have I lost friends, I also lost the understanding of the emotion known as love. Love, is such a sad proclamation of a weak emotion. Yet, everybody seems to yearn for it. To need it and long for it. *sigh* I seem to forget the feeling of that. Haha~ It’s useless. Every time I open up my heart, It always ends up being hurt and torn all apart.

All I reminisce, is here. The thoughts of a dissatisfied man. The thoughts of a Sarcastic joker.

The End of One

2006-02-20T23:04:00.000+08:00

I am quite bored and definitely tired....

I am now a cadet.. living a boring life and wanting to get out of this nutshell they call officer cadet.

I want to become an officer... I can do so much more when I am an officer....

I need to go for my officer cadet course... It sux just being idle like this... not getting the respect and the stuff with it...

I get the treatment of an officer... but I dont get the authority... It's all because of the idiotic white line...

until next time... askum

Entering the New Year

2006-01-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

Hey all... whats so Happy with New year's? It seems like the same to me... I didnt even realise it was new years until sumone mentioned it to me in the cafe... Hahahaha

So whats new with me... I am attached to a battalion.. Been doing lotsa exercise... I want and need to go to Singapore for my cadet course.. hehehehe

Actually I am not in the mood to write a long post tonight... be seeing you around...

Adios ;)

Finally!! An Update!! ;)

2005-12-11T17:00:00.000+08:00

Hello and Askum.
Its not once or twice I heard people complaining about “not updating your blog” but what could I do? I am quite busy… to an extent… 

What has happened recently to me… Let me recall everything that has happened to me for the past couple of months…

It all started after the six weeks. We had our Package Study Programme. It contained with studying basic knowledge on certain aspects in becoming a well-trained military. Lessons such as map reading, signal training and basic first aid was taught to us. The study programme lasted for a month, more or less… Each Lessons lasted for a week and we were tested to see how we understood the subject. Seems like I had a very well grasp of the subjects. 

After that we had our Military Fitness Tests. We went for our CFT (Combat Fitness Test). This is more about reaching your destination with in a given period of time. We lugged a backpack weighing 10 kilos and held our M16’s (which weighed at more or less 5 kilos) throughout a course of 8 kms. We had to jog through the track and reach our destination with in 2 hours. It may seem okay but to tell you the truth, It was not really all that pretty. Hahaha~ People were complaining and grumbling about the distance and the heavy load… during and after the test. We started at around 7 pm in Tutong camp and finished 1 hr and 50 mins later at the gymnasium of Penanjong camp. Everybody was relieved to have completed this test. We had our APWT soon after that (Annual Personal Weapons Test) to see how well our shooting skills are…

We were all preparing for our Final Review: 10 day Jungle Encampment… We went to Muara Camp to learn how to perform the River-crossing… It was so SYOK!! And we also went to Rimba Air base… to learn how to get on and off helicopters.

We went for our 10 day Jungle Encampent. It started in Kg Ukong, Merangking. This is where we did our River-Crossing and River Ambush.. The two days spent there were definitely fun. Then we moved to a jungle in Kg Bukit. We spent 6 days there and exercised everything that we had learned from the 4 months training that we had. After the 6 days, we had to trek down a dusty road carrying our heavy packs. CFT was much better… Jalan Tahan Lasak was definitely torture and hell for me… Completing the trek we moved to Bukit Agok in Bruei Muara District where we did our hill top defence. We were to practice some sort of tactic to when we were under siege from the sea. We spent two nights at Bukit Agok and we encountered a heavy f***ing rain on the second night…. It was a downpour I could still recall to this day. I never thought I would ever get as wet and miserable as then. Early the next morning we had a retreat exercise… walking for a distance of more than 5 kms.

Comleting the 10 day Jungle Encampment, we knew that the Passing Out Parade was near. We had our MST (Military Swimming Test) after the Jungle. This involves floating for 2 mins and swimming 4 half-lengths of the swimming pool. Easy, if you don’t have those army boots on.

We also had our 2nd BFT. I scored my Personal best of 9 mins 50 secs here. I felt really proud of that.

We started taining for the POP Drills. We had a Section Drill Competition. Couldn’t actually say we were any good but I am glad we did it. We finished our 6 months recruit training with a Passing Out Parade and me and my other 4 colleagues received our titles as Officer Cadets after that. Recruitment really ended with the Malam Penutup.

The weekend was spent at the mess getting ready for the Hari Raya Celebration. Our Holidays started on Monday, but it didn’t feel like a holiday. I still had to go back and forth to penanjong to do my personal administration… So that I am well prepared to become a full-fledged officer. I never want to cock-up.

My two weeks holidays are almost up… I will be leaving for the mess later at 8 pm. We have a BFT tomorrow and report to R COY to see where we are to be posted… I am not hoping for much… I don’t actually know when I will be leaving for my cadet course but hopefully, I will be sent to Singapore.

I will be in quarantine for a period of 40 days… so I might not update the blog for some time… but when I do… expect it to be just as long as this… hahahaha~

Pleased to read the going ons in my life? Any comments, please… feel free to give me a shout out… or message my friendster…. It’s just the same.. hehehehehe~ ;)

End of Six months

2005-11-18T19:33:00.000+08:00

well now...

I have come to the end of my six months recruitment... and I am tired..

Takut ku kan jadi pegawai kadet but I guess I gotta do it... wheeee

I'll update more when I am more rajin.. hehehe

Half-Way

2005-07-31T12:00:00.000+08:00

Hello all...

Here I am with an update (finally) Haha... nothing much but it seems that I have pretty much tied up with work for the past 3 months... consider that i was in quarantine for 6 weeks and 6 weeks I had things to do.. Hey i only had a weekend off in every 2 weeks okay? :)

Life has been quite miserable wit me but I know that I could manage... I take a look on how to improve my life and make everything turn good. I AM trying to make the best out of things.

I realised that my fitness has vastly improved from the time when I was still a civilian. i can rightfully say that I am 60 % fit. Haha...

What has happened? i joined the recruit on 02 May 2005 and we had a Holding Platoon for 3 Weeks. it was like being shocked, like *wha? i'm here?* and we signed our legal papers on 20 May 2005 (20 05 2005) cool eh? I underwent a quarantine period with my other 149 colleagues for 6 weeks. Here we were trained fitness and basic marching drills. the basic necessities of becoming an army personnel. My Intake Commander taught us the bakal kadet on how to become an officer.

I do agree, in the beginning I was definitely blur and awe-struck, but I try ever so hard to correct and improve myself.. I wasnt to be better...

we had a BFT (Basic Fitness Test) and the passing time for the 5 Km run is 11mins 30secs. I passed that with a time of 10mins 14secs (personal best) I am trying to improve on that....

So far this is what is happening to me.... I'll update you guys later on when I have the time to do so... see you peepz...

Finally!! Haha~

2005-04-26T19:05:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone... Hows your day? My day today seemed the longest so far to date in this year. I have to tell you guys all about it in this post.

I received a phonecall from Bolkiah yesterday and they told me to come to Bolkiah in the morning, today. So I went there with all the anticipation in the world and got a letter. I opened it and to my surprise and excitement, I GOT IT!!! I was accepted to become a military officer. This is something big for me, especially since this is what I want for a very long time. The feeling of overwhelment filled me and I gave a very long sigh of relief *sigh*... I am elated with the news, and I am sure my parents would be delighted as well. :)

After being briefed about a parents briefing tomorrow, the would-be cadets went to the Gymnasium to do the final medical... The urine test. I know I could pass this with ease. Anyways, I finally saw who were the other recruits of intake 128. They seem nice enough and frendly enough. According to my assumptions, there is a total of 150 people in this intake. Thats alot of people, it's like saying 6 Bakal Pegawai taking care of 144 other recruits. Damn, that is a lot of people.

After the medical, we went to fill in several forms. *smile* A lot of writing was involved and it hurt bad... It took us 2 hours to complete filling in the forms. I went to gadong with Alim. He wanted to quit school. Kurt joined us and we went to MD. While I was there I saw familiar faces. Those faces reminded me of my time in MD. I felt I was literally a student there again. Uhmm~ I did see a guy who resembled me while I was in MD. ahhh~ nevermind that. Hehe..

Kurt, Alim and me went to lepak at Weststreet. We relaxed there and lepak lah. When the clock touched 1700 hrs we left. I went to lepak at Alim's house and Kurt went home. I talked with Alim's mom and soon left to go online i.e. do this.

Tomorrow I have the briefing at Bolkiah Camp with my parents. This is gonna be a whole lot of rushing for me. I don't care, my dream is being fulfilled!!! By Monday 02 May 2005 I will be going for the Holding platoon. 3 weeks later I will become a full recruit. Goodbye civilian life! I needed to inform you people that I would not be going online to update for some time, probably 9 weeks. That is a long time is that not? Hehe~

I will keep you guys updated once I get out. Wish me the best peepz. Life needs a target to achieve, if not life is worthless. I should end it here, Ciao!! ;)

Tired...

2005-04-23T15:15:00.000+08:00

The days are tiring and annoying, anxiety fills my body. Did I get it? I don't know. That is what has been getting on my nerves for the time being. Hehe... I am confident that I could get the Job but then luck has a lot to do with it. Hopefully luck is on my side.

What If it isn't? Then, I will do it all over again and start from the bottom. And this time I will do everything with the utmost perfect way... *sigh* I just hope I could get it. I don't like doing things twice or three times... Shietz...

What has been happening in my life so far? Since that day I have been at home and doing nothing. Apart from training and praying for the best. Seems like I can't stop hoping... I really really really want this job eh. That makes me sound desperate doesn't that? :) Actually I am determined to get this job with every effort that I have in my Body... I don't know how to explain it but thats exactly the way I feel.

Where do I expect to be in 5 years time? I expect to be working and having a stable life. I do not know whether I will have a partner but I do know that I will become the person alot of girls would want to be with. Hahahahaha~ dat makes me sound so vain, But I guess thats the truth. Hehe... Hopefully this is what I will have. A new Car (sports car- namely the Toyota Supra), alot of cool gadgets and things that could make even the new generation envious ... Hahaha... I hope. :P

I am just funkily tired. Sorry if I have been blabbing about stupid stuff but thats what have been going through my mind. *sigh* I needed to release my thoughts so that I don't go crazy... Oh well I guess thats all for now. I will see you guys in the near future. Keep me updated. :)

D-Day + 1 (After FIB)

2005-04-20T10:09:00.000+08:00

Well, the anxious wait is over and everything is done with. *phew* I guess I was a nervous wreck during that day and it seems that the whole world had caved in to me. Shiet... Cool...

I woke up at 0630 hrs, and got myself ready for the important situation. before 0800 I was already at Bolkiah Camp. The FIB consisted the Commanders of RBAF. It was so mental... Oh well.

Once the Interview was over I went to chill. I knew I could have done better than what I did during the FIB. But it was done and over with. Arghhh~ how on earth could I have been so nervous? *sigh* I hope I get the position.

Anyways, Whats on my mind... Oh yeah, talking about relationships. I notice how intimate and caring several relatioinships are(the ones I know of) uhmmm~ I jus want to point out how envious I get because of this, but I still glad that I am not commited with anybody right now. Haha~ Why? During the period of time when my life is going to be turned upside down inside out, I dont want to lose a 'loved' one... hehe~

When I get the answer(and hopefully its positive) I will be going away for quite sometime... but I will keep you guys posted... Hehe bah, until next time... see ya

Yeeehaaaa! GriNzz

2005-04-11T11:37:00.000+08:00

*Big Smile*

I got the call!! I am listed for the FIB (Final Interview Board). I am so elated!!!
This thing about getting into the Military has me so worked up so much that I can hardly think straight... *grinz*

I started training again. This time I have to train intensively. What I mean is that I train alone and I must train hard to be atleast competetive with the other recruits. Hahaha~ I love this feeling, I haven't had this feeling since... the last time...

I am sad because there are several friends whom I left behind... but that's life right? You have to pick yourself up, start walking forward and look at life realistically...

To the guys who did not make it this time, I am expecting you guys in the next intake. Do not give up, I do not expect my friends to be wusses...

What else is new? Operation Nighthawk is done and gone, we had the bomb... well, grenade lah... not so much boom boom. Haha... I do not care that much anymore...

Life sucks for me, but I can still get a diamond among the pile of shit... This makes it all so worthwhile... I love it Hahahahahaah~

Soon, Sham is no longer the boy you all know... I be man, Working Man... Hahahahaha~ Uhm~ yeah, I think thats all for now... I'll keep you guys updated...

Adios
Sarcastic Joker

Bad Hair Day

2005-04-05T15:09:00.000+08:00

I am just myself...

Its just that today seems like a whole like being crappy... Nahh~ I aint being grouchy or whatever, It's just that I can't seem to get my head straight. uhmmm thinking straight... urgh~ just say dat I think alot okay... urghh~ never mind...

My existing world sucks like hell... here's a mental picture: ground level, below dat is soil and shit, below dat is hall, below dat is a pile of shit... and I am below dat... sucks eh? I dunno.

What have been happening in my life? hmmm.... I am still training, If you could consider swimming as training. I have been going to the anggerek swimming pool at a regular basis now, and still deciding when I should start running. Maybe once I am confirmed recommended to the FIB. *sigh* I try so hard to reach the expectations of EVERYONE that I think I may burn myself out some day or another...

Swimming had been okay lah... No much change or whatever. Kurt is getting more and more proefficient with swimming... I can't say much about my running though. Even my upper body work out... arghhhh~

Oh well thats enough of training... I am still waiting for a letter or phone call from Bolkiah Camp. I have been going out nights like everyday. I should stop doing that. it's not really a healthy thing to do. So today I made the decision to stay at home so that I could relax and think thoroughly of what I want to do.

The usual people I go out with is Kurt and Alim. I met up with Dayat and Diana at Weststreet last night. It's been awhile since I talked with them. Hopefully everything is going fine for them.

Kurt introduced some frends of his to me. They are a nice group, which I only have gotten to know Coen, Lisa, Yush and Mini... Good people.

Back to me here... I am stressed out, my biological clock is in haywire... I gotta do something about this or I will definitely end up bein psycho or sumthing. Haha *grinz* Nada lah... I think I just need time to straighten things out and get a grasp on things. Hehe.

I changed my mind about changing the Blog layoout. I am just too damn LAZY to change it... Hahaha... I'll update my blog another time... Hehe.. *grinz*

pFIB

2005-03-31T17:08:00.000+08:00

I had been to the pre-FIB. There were 13 people who were selected to attend this interview, including myself. I don't know what I was expecting but it seems that with all the preparation in the world, I was not really ready for what I was going to face.

I arrived at the Sargeant's Mess at Seven Thirty. The thing was that we were all supposed to be there before 8. So we were waiting for the Officers to come and start the interview. Sadly, the interview started late and we started it by eleven. Each one of the interviewees came in and had there interviews. What I could see was that each one had this face of dejection each time they come out of the room.

We had the Chairman, 2 senior officers and 5 officers. This was so difficult for myself.

By the time I went in for the Interview, I was confronted with one of my worst case scenarios. It hurts me to know that I could have made a better impression for my interview, but it just seems that it's done. I couldn't do anything about whatever I have done.

I see that my interview was not any worser than the others, and I have the confidence that I could possibly one of the few people who are selected to be an officer.

I pray to God that I could get this spot, and I really want to be an officer.

I am gonna change my blog in a couple of days, so probably I will be closing it down for some time in the future weeks. So just sit back and watch me recoil. So, get ready for something that you could not expect. ;)

AFCB

2005-03-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

I completed...

The week was fun... We had fun during that time...
I went in on Sunday at 1600hrs.
On Monday, We had Interview and Swimming... Swimming was cool...
On Tuesday, Discussion,Upper body test and running... Push-up 40 times in a min, Sit-up 35 times a min and 1 chin-up... urghh~ Running I only got 12.04 mins for the 2.4 km run
On Wednesday, Lecturette... I did the bomb... Haha~ Then we had Orientaring
On Thursday, Command Task... Wah Lau... So difficult ma~ but I did it...
On Friday I went home...

During the stay, The last night was really fun... Theres thisindividual who we call 'Karau' who pissed off alotta people... So we, as Special Squadron had a mission. Code-Named Ops Karau 1. For more details... email or shout at me... Haha...

I'll Catch up wit you people another time... enjoy the time you have... hahaha~ Chiao

New Updates

2005-03-02T12:28:00.000+08:00

It has been a while since the last posting. I don't actually know what I have been doing so far, but I will try to point out what has been going on and what I am gonna do...

I have been pretty busy at the moment, with training and studying for my entrance exams. The ambition in being an army officer is so steadfast in me... I go running in the afternoon and once I am done with running I go to Anggerek Swimming pool. During night time, I read on things... politics, economics and stuff. This is repeated almost every night...

Thats why I can't seem to find time to log on and update my friendster and blogger.

Whats gonna happen? I am gonna go somewhere in Tutong next week for my entrance exams... It will definitely involve alot of physical activities and intellectual prowess...

My thoughts? I believe it has come to a time that I must face my decision and show my determination... Maybe I wont be able to log on for quite some time. Hope you guys won't mind the absence...

-See ya around-

Down with the Sickness

2005-02-17T11:58:00.000+08:00

I got back from army camp. What did I get from there? A runny nose and coughing... Damn the weather. I enjoyed my time there, eventhough I felt kind of out of place there... I dont quite figure out what was the matter... was it me or was it something else...

I dont know what to say actually... The first day in the camp we had to do several medical checks... kinda fun to know how fit you are... Turns out I am on the borderline of being obese... hahaha... not sure how to go about that...

We had our written tests the next day it was something different... Hmmm

Then... I went home and am waiting for the next phase... let's see what will happen nest eh?

Retrogade: Tired n Weary

2005-02-08T15:29:00.000+08:00

Today is one of the few days where i feel so exhausted. Maybe I am gonna drop tired in a couple of hours... but before that I need to do training.

I went to Bolkiah Camp today and recieved a letter that I am supposed to stay there next Monday... but I have an interview to attend!!! Damn... Hehe. I need to go to the dentist on thursday to get a rotten teeth out and fix up the others and then I need to go shopping.... so that I have everything... OOOOhhh tomorrow I go Hiking at Bukit Shahbandar... Hahaha...

Here I would like to discuss about the way women treat men... I cant seem to figure them out. You treat them wrong they say you have no feelings, treat em right... you have intimate feelings for them.... and etc etc. what do you guys think?

Retrogade: New Happenings

2005-02-05T18:53:00.000+08:00

Hey all.. It surely has been a while since I went online. I wonder whaat I have been doing? uhmmm~ I guess I was sooooo busy. Things in life aint easy to comprehend...

Whats up? I went to Meragang Beach with Dayat, Ros, Diana, Kurt n Saiful the other day. The beach is considerably clean... in comparison to the other beaches in Brunei Muara District. I guess I enjoyed my time there, my problems seem to be at a nice distance.

Training is still training. I am training for the army officer thing, and i seriously hope that i could get it. I go to the swimming pool in Anggerek wit kurt and then I go jogging around the Stadium. Almost everyday of the week.

Hmmmm... Last night I was watching Elektra and National Treasure... Read my review on them.

Elektra: The storyline was quite mediocre... that is what an avid comic book reader would say. If you know the comic book series and enjoy reading about her exploits... the movie does portray Elektra as she is... It just lack a kind of element that could bring more. Hey I ain't being unjust... I do believe that Elektra is a much better movie than Daredevil. and it should be, with everything that happens in the movie... I rate it a cool 7 out of 10.

High: I'm Sorry... Yeah I Hated That...
Low: Too much Story to pack in one movie that cause some areas missing....

National Treasure: This was an entertaining movie... It's cool to see how the main character figures out the clues from one to another. It does have an element of Ocean's Twelve... but that's only a small part of it. As the story progressed, you could be engrossed with the storyline... and next thing you know... the movie ends. It's fun to watch with friends, or you might want to wait for the DVD to enjoy this story. I give it a 8 out of 10.

High: When Ben steals the Declaration of Independence
Low: The start, quite vague...

Anyway, I guess thats what I could share for the time being... I'll see what else I could share with you peepz in the near future... ;) Enjoy!

Retrogade : Updates

2005-01-31T19:42:00.000+08:00

Here are several upcoming movie releases that I think will rock!!

Hehey!!! This shud be a rocker... you remember Jim Carey's The Mask hit in 1995? The sequel promises us a lotta good stuff... Hope they come out with it!!! :)

Cast:
Jamie Kennedy, Alan Cumming, Ben Stein, Traylor Howard, Bob Hoskins

Director:
Larry Guterman

Screenwriter:
Lance Khazei, Rob McKittrick, Tom Gammill, Max Pross

I loved the first miss congeniality in the early 2000s... I hope the fun continues in this one. Sandra Bullock is back...

Cast:
Sandra Bullock, Regina King, Michael Caine, Enrique Murciano, Heather Burns, William Shatner, Ludacris

Director:
John Pasquin

Screenwriter:
Marc Lawrence

Hehe... I'll keep you peepz posted in the near future. See ya...

Retrogade: Updates

2005-01-31T13:11:00.000+08:00

Well now, how could I put these things nicely? sum people complain that I dont put enough in my blog... What? Not enuff ka? I gave out some info and all that... Here's the latest occurences.

I went to Bukit Shahbandar yesterday at 4... Going up the first Hill was like crazy... I was huffing n puffing... I thought I was going to die... Hehe... The next thing I know was I was on top of Hill 5 admiring the view. The Trekk was ridiculously crazy, winding here and there. steep ascent and descent... I enjoyed every single bit of it. If it was not because it was getting dark, I would have stayed longer... :) I felt so tired after that. Which was cool...

I went to ITB today, checking out the Career Day Thingy there. I met Dayat n Kurt n Diana n Ros n alotta other people. I even went for a news reader audition. I was so nervous that I had stumbled on several words... Argh!!! Hehe, but it was fun. Hmmm, probably go jogging at stadium later. Tonights plans? Not much...

Ohhhh I got something to complain... The chatting via sms thingy? I didnt know that they charge recieved messages!!!! Now I am very low on credit...

Tomoro's plans? Got to go to JPD to get my bro's L lisence n ... pick up my progress slip and complete my leaving certificate... other plans are not yet included... ;)

Retrogade: Continuum

2005-01-29T16:34:00.000+08:00

The days have been long,
The nights very sleepless,
Thoughts on my mind,
Making me feel alone in the world,

I am not usually problematic... Haha. I guess its just one of those weeks eh? I don't even know what to say about myself anymore.

Hmmmm, I had to do several things today... I went to Baiduri Finance in Kiarong to get my car's Bluecard... It's her b'day and I need to renew some things... Hehe... Then I went to ITB to fix up my leaving cert and what nots... Hehe... sometimes I think that I am not myself. I ended up here, online... to fix this Blog up... So How's you like it? Tell me now, don't pull out the punches eh? :) I'm cool.

Retrogade : Events Unfolding

2005-01-29T14:04:00.000+08:00

What am I suppose to say or do? I guess I am worried and anxious becoz of things... I am all tensed up... and I see no sense in being tensed but I guess that is who I am.

What have I been up to? Well, for the couple of days I have been going out with Dayat n Kurt.. Hanging out and stuff. I would like to hand out my deepest gratz to the dudes...

Whats up with you guys? I can't be long so now I say... Sayonara

Second Chapter

2005-01-25T13:03:00.000+08:00

Weeeeeellllll, I guess my booger is complete.... I need some time to collect .... data... hahahaha~