I am just myself...
Its just that today seems like a whole like being crappy... Nahh~ I aint being grouchy or whatever, It's just that I can't seem to get my head straight. uhmmm thinking straight... urgh~ just say dat I think alot okay... urghh~ never mind...
My existing world sucks like hell... here's a mental picture: ground level, below dat is soil and shit, below dat is hall, below dat is a pile of shit... and I am below dat... sucks eh? I dunno.
What have been happening in my life? hmmm.... I am still training, If you could consider swimming as training. I have been going to the anggerek swimming pool at a regular basis now, and still deciding when I should start running. Maybe once I am confirmed recommended to the FIB. *sigh* I try so hard to reach the expectations of EVERYONE that I think I may burn myself out some day or another...
Swimming had been okay lah... No much change or whatever. Kurt is getting more and more proefficient with swimming... I can't say much about my running though. Even my upper body work out... arghhhh~
Oh well thats enough of training... I am still waiting for a letter or phone call from Bolkiah Camp. I have been going out nights like everyday. I should stop doing that. it's not really a healthy thing to do. So today I made the decision to stay at home so that I could relax and think thoroughly of what I want to do.
The usual people I go out with is Kurt and Alim. I met up with Dayat and Diana at Weststreet last night. It's been awhile since I talked with them. Hopefully everything is going fine for them.
Kurt introduced some frends of his to me. They are a nice group, which I only have gotten to know Coen, Lisa, Yush and Mini... Good people.
Back to me here... I am stressed out, my biological clock is in haywire... I gotta do something about this or I will definitely end up bein psycho or sumthing. Haha *grinz* Nada lah... I think I just need time to straighten things out and get a grasp on things. Hehe.
I changed my mind about changing the Blog layoout. I am just too damn LAZY to change it... Hahaha... I'll update my blog another time... Hehe.. *grinz*
posted at 3:09 PM by Retrogade: Ikizawa 912.
